i need to succeed

Otuke??? Living with my family seems so boring..I even feel hating them..for a little..
keluhan2nya..marah2nya,,masalahnya..hhhh...kyknya ud basi bgt kyknya,,, ud bosen sebosen-bosennya ama mereka...sometimes,,i really wanna get out from this house..it feels like i'm in prison..it's just one day..i wanna have my own house, live my own life, and do what i wanna do..i wanna be free..so now, i need to work hard..very2 hard to accomplish all those things..the things that i'm dreaming of....
I wanna decided something on my own, treasure what i want , and have what i wanna have..
it really seems beautiful to live alone,free,,w/o any expectation form others,,,ga ad yg kepo2,,ngeliatin ap yg kita buka di web,,duh.i wanna have my own privacy..kapan yah,,i'm wondering..when is that???????????
so now,i just wanna work hard and get everything what i want.live my own life..by myself..

that's the most significant thing...WORK HARD AND BE THE BEST !!
God bless me!!................................

Today..
i'm stressed enough..........
it kills me till death
how could i done this??
it seems rather impossible..im out of my sense..im desperate..
God,,help me...

otuke??
i'm afraid till death that no one will buy my shoes....
how could i face this
i have family who also depend on this shoes,,how could i make them disappointed,,Oh God,,please help me i don't know what to do and i'm too stress to believe someone and even have someone to talk to....sometimes i miss my old life,,i wanna be back to my senior high moments,,many times just passed happily w/o any worries..i don't know i should regret this or not..God help me..i'm truly afraid,,how could ??? how could??? how could??????????????

optimistic

Yesterday,,when i saw my father sold his car,,my heart was filled with sadness and hopelessness. I saw his pain to let so something precious for him.at that time i felt useless and bad...

Up until now, there's no one bought our shoes..i believe God has different plans for me,,He has something special..He knows that the biggest thing that i want from this selling to help my family out of our debt and continue our life as before. It's rather painful to see my father doesn't have car to go to the office and he needs to take a bus or walk..it's terribly painful. After seeing, all his hard works, I realize how much i love my family especially my father, He with all his strength try to protect us and finish this money problem by his own.It's awful, because i just sit there, and I can do nothing bout this...It's just, Go knows,,how much i wanna help my father and makes him happy..I just wanna tell God, that I still believe He will do the best for us,,especially my shoes store and makes the best for us.. I believe God won't leave me alone..since, i need him the most,at times like this...please God, protect my father and my family..don't make us separate from you, nevertheless, make us closer to you and always rely on you..whatever happens in our life..thanks God..
I love you.. 

God Knows....

this is the forth day,, i have begun to sell all of my shoes..and how disappointed i am,,when in know that no one bought my shoes..They were just asking how much it is, or can i send my shoes to them, they wanna try it..and so on and so fort..I was thinking,,how could i have no one buyer?????????
it was pathetic , i guess, i thought, why i need to suffer all this...and i fell like i'm going crazy..but then,,my mom said..that i need to calm down...take a deep breath..i see, so now, i just wanna pray to God that he will listen to my prayers and he could help me through all these, since without him..i really don't know what to do..it's just so frustrating...
* God, please hear my pray and let me do my best. Please give your blessing to me,,so that i can do what is best for my work..Thanks God..^^

The Third Day ...

This is the third day since i become a shoes-seller..oh my..ternyata jual sepatu tuh ga gampang yah..pertama g pikir, gampanglah..apalgy jual lewat fb,fs, n twitter..at least i know become an independent entrepreneur is not an easy thing..^^,,thats okay..guys,,g cuma maw cerita..jd setelah g ambil sepatu2 itu dr produsennya..( yg baik bgt n berkualitas brgnya ),,g buru2 buka fb n bikin account bisnis buat sepatu g,,n singkat cerita nge-tag sepatu2 itu ke temen2 g..n u know what, i was thinking,,y gampanglah..paling besok ud ad yg beli,,n u know..there's no one asking bout my shoes,,from about 30 -40 people that i was tagged in..Stress ga sih???!!!! 

as a new comer,,g ga nyangka itu berat bgt..g hampir nangis n stress,,krn ud kluar modal yg lumayan gede utk sepatu ini...tapi my mom said, that,thats okay..you need to be more patient and keep praying..my mom said..soon or later.//people will know the quality of your shoes,,bukan cuma harganya..krn guys,,,u know..harga ga bohong!! i can make sure that....harga suatu sepatu ditentukan oleh kualitasnya....nyaman engganya,tahan lama ato ga-nya..u will know..and kenapa g berani ngmg seperti ini,,krn g maw memberi yg terbaik buat org2,,buat cewe2 terutama yg cinta sepatu..just wanna let you know..your shoes will bring you to certain place that you'll never know..N yg g mau tekankan hari ini adalh..sesusah apapun hidup kita,,apapun yg kita jalani,,ttp semangat n be happy, don't let fear make you down..be positive and keep smiling..

God Bless^^

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