Ayaka Lida : okaeri....( she is a great singer ) ^^

i really like this song,,this song reminds me of  warm feelings,,it feels like you are in a place where you own that place and feel happy about it..it's really a nice song ^^

of course, i have so many issues which i need to deal with,but it will never stop me from getting what i want..maybe my expectations about my shoes are going too high, even so.i would just never give up...it's hard for me to like something...but once i like it i will never want to lose it..and i won't acknowledge lost if i haven't tried it...simple..

you know,I'm not that smart, pretty or even talented ,,however, i have something that maybe the others don't have. : THE WILLINGNESS TO HAVE SOMETHING AND MAKE IT BIG ... i realize I LOVE PERFECTION AND EVEN IT DOESN'T LOOK LIKE IT, I STILL MAKE IT MY LIFESTYLE.... ( the greens show that i love my high school so bad !! )

Perfection makes me now,,if..only if one day i become successful , i will never forget what i am now and how i am ... me is still myself,,it wouldn't change to anything,,even if some alteration would be needed hehe..

but,,i will know deep inside my heart, i wouldn't change,no matter how rich or how great I'm...

I'm still me..........

wish me luck guys..!!!

God bless ^^

I really don't know if i need to stop or not.
i was so hopeless in every aspect..
first, it's about my shoes, i feel so tired to cover all these things,,it's like i'm alone and i have no one to give me some aid..
i'm near to death..i think everything that i do is so useless...it's not fair..i work hard for this and i get nothing in return..do i demand too much????? 
second,,i was planning to forget about everything about her,,i was planning to..but i don't have any strength to do that,,deep inside of me i still hate her and everything that she has,
why, she also takes away my friends,,she is such a biatch !!!
often, i really wanna kill her and make her saying sorry ,,begging for forgiveness and disappear from my sight, i absolutely want to..
i just wanna live in a world,,far far and far away,,where i can't she her and all the people that i hate,,i gathered much hatred and i wanna just throw it..but.i can't,too many people who make me disappointed .i will never ever forgive them and i'm planning to bring this hatred till i die..by that time,,i will make sure.THAT THEY CANNOT BEAT ME......YOU ARE FUCKERS.
it's a promise..one day all of you will regret it...you will.