I really don't know if i need to stop or not.
i was so hopeless in every aspect..
first, it's about my shoes, i feel so tired to cover all these things,,it's like i'm alone and i have no one to give me some aid..
i'm near to death..i think everything that i do is so useless...it's not fair..i work hard for this and i get nothing in return..do i demand too much????? 
second,,i was planning to forget about everything about her,,i was planning to..but i don't have any strength to do that,,deep inside of me i still hate her and everything that she has,
why, she also takes away my friends,,she is such a biatch !!!
often, i really wanna kill her and make her saying sorry ,,begging for forgiveness and disappear from my sight, i absolutely want to..
i just wanna live in a world,,far far and far away,,where i can't she her and all the people that i hate,,i gathered much hatred and i wanna just throw it..but.i can't,too many people who make me disappointed .i will never ever forgive them and i'm planning to bring this hatred till i die..by that time,,i will make sure.THAT THEY CANNOT BEAT ME......YOU ARE FUCKERS.
it's a promise..one day all of you will regret it...you will.