Today, i was really jealous and feeling little. Actually it has happened yesterday, but now, i'm feeling it again. Seeing ADe and Vicky shu,,really makes me feel jealous, they are beautiful , smart, and succeed..i'm wondering,,when i could be like that,,i feel like a mouse in front of them..seeing them shining so brightly ,,they are really my idol...i really  wanna be like Ade or Vicky shu..they are talented in art..i don't have any talent like that. i know..but, i think i have some talent in ..............( don't need to tell )hehehe.. let it be my secret..

they are great people..i really admire them,,but i think if i work hard and focus on my goal,,one day,, i don't know when,,i could be like them.. ^^..in order to meet my dream, i need to work hard, keep my spirit on and never give up also always pray..i know GOd must be having some great plans for me,,and i have to get it..i wanna make my family specially may parents  and my brother proud of me..i also wanna make me proud to myself..rather nuts huh???
 but,i'm not just going to give,,i';; show to the world,,who i really am...i really don't mind to work hard..as long as it will create something..it's okay for me...
God please help me to pas these difficult moments..i believe you would help me,,let me be strong and always count on you no matter happens, i believe you would never let me down..
please help me God..please,,i just wish that Fernanda is not lying..i really wish..please help me God..^^
thanks a lot..^^