hola,long time no see
i haven't been writing for almost a month, fiuhh pretty long right ??
you know what, last week i sent my essay and well i get selected for APDSA in thailand, surely i literally wanna go there, but there are many worrisome things, like my close friends didn't get elected so it looks like i have to find a new companion, since i think if you are going somewhere, your dream place, you surely wanna go with someone close, so you won't be alone. but the fate says another thing, it looks like i need to find new friends..omo ! not only that, i'm rally afraid that this congress will spend a lot of money, i keep thinking how to pay for it. Of course i wanna go but if the cost is too high so i guess i'll just forget about it.sad, huh ??
yeah, sometimes life feels unfair, particularly for me.It feels like i have done so many things, i have tried really hard to get what i want  yet in the end i ( probably ) couldn't go.well this is really disappointing . because i'm eager to go, you know one of dreams is going to some place well by myself or together away from home, away from all problems i just wanna enjoy myself for once. I really really really want to go.Now, i'm just waiting and expecting a miracle to be happened , God knows i don't have that much money to  go, but i really wanna go. i just wish that God could hear me and He knows about my problem. That's it.at least the cost could get cheaper..i wish that i could go to Thailand. really this is a great opportunity and i can't just let it go..But, I'm sure and i believe God will give me the best, He allows to get selected so it's possible that He also allows me to go..God please hear my pray..I wanna go, really wanna go,,but i can't make it heavier for my daddy..He has already stressed with all these and i don't want to make him get burdened about my problems. Please God i need your guidance, just show me the best way of all this. I know you are the only who could help me.. Please God,, thanks a lot. I love you.